badluckfairy

May 10, 2011

A difference of perspective.

Filed under: College,Writing — by badluckfairy @ 19:45

The onlooker.

She’s a strange girl her, the one over there.  Today she’s stood with her arms crossed, not making eye contact.

Last week when she came in she did nothing but talk.  She shared her experiences, offered advice and fitted in here quite well.

But today, well what can I say?  If she didn’t want to come here she should have stayed at home.  No-one forced her to come.

Maybe I said or did something wrong.  No that can’t be it, we were chatting and laughing animatedly last time we spoke.

Look at her, I wonder if there is something wrong.  Should I ask if she is ok?  No, I’m sure if she wanted our company she’d come and sit nearby.

She’s a strange one her.

The girl.

They are looking at me.  I can’t bring myself to meet their gazes.  I bet they are wondering if I’m being off with them.

Truth is that I just don’t feel comfortable today- not with them, but with me.  There are only a few seats left and I’m worried whoever I sit next to might not want me there.

All I can do is stand here, defending myself.  It’s all about self preservation today, I hope I’m different next time.

I loved being able to chat and have a laugh last time.  Why can’t I just go over and join a conversation?

Why did I have to walk in the room and fold my arms?  Why can’t I even meet their gazes, smile  or say hello?

I wish I could start the last 5 minutes again.  Put up the front that I’m fine, saunter over, sit down and start a conversation.

I didn’t have any problems last week.

I bet they think I’m strange.

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2 Comments »

  1. That’s a really good story and you’re a great writer.

    Comment by buzzingash — May 11, 2011 @ 22:38 |Reply

  2. Thank you for saying that, much appreciated 🙂

    Comment by badluckfairy — May 12, 2011 @ 01:05 |Reply


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